gosh darn it

I have literally been trying to write this blog post for the last two days and have not been able to get a single thing down and I’m actually pretty upset about it.

I was so burnt out after yesterdays PSAT’s which put me in literally the worst mood because it literally just showed me how stupid i am and how much i don’t know. but anyway all i wanted to do was go home and take a god damn bath but i had a job interview at Sierra Cinemas which didn’t go all that well because it was my first job interview ever and i was so nervous and my voice was so shaky. Im so upset too because i want that job so badly its unreal. After that i had to go and babysit until 10 at night which is what i am currently doing for money and although it pays mediocrely i really don’t like children and i would really like a legit job cause it would look good for colleges since I’m wanting to major in film.

Anyway i never got my bath and i have been far to lazy to change the sheets on my bed so there are SOOO many crumbs in it it’s crazy.

Today was better, school was stressful and i had my internship but i hung out with a pal and I’m excited for halloween so everything is okay 🙂

My Daily Routine

now my life isnt really that routine at all and i really dont do anything on a schedule except school and stuff. But here it is anyway because there are certain   things that i do every day no matter what

6-630ish

Get up 

how long i usually lay in bed goes from exactly 5 minutes to exact 10 and then to exactly 15 but usually no more then 15

645-7ish

Shower

EVERY morning i get up and take a shower. it doesn’t matter what kind of a day it is i will have always showered right after i get up or i feel very dirty all day. My showers are on average 8-11 minutes, depending on what i have to do.

710-720ish

Lay in bed

after every shower i take, before getting dressed, i lay in my bed either on my phone or laptop just chilling. its just like my last bit of relax time before i have to get the day started. I depend on this time and when i dont get it, it throws off my entire day.

720-727

Pick out what im wearing

this can take anywhere from 2 minutes to basically my entire morning. sometimes everything i pick out and put on just doesnt work and it can take forever to find the right things since my sister is always taking my clothes.

727-735

Brush my Hair and Makeup

This usually doesnt last that long because some mornings i decide to either not where make up or brush my hair, it all depends on what im feeling like that day.

735-745

Eat breakfast

if im at my dads i eat scrambled eggs and if im at my moms ill have a bagel

745-750

Leave for School

i leave for school somewhat early since it only takes me a few minutes to get to school but i like to sit outside of coffee roaster before school starts with Liam to talk and stuff.

820-330

School 😛

330-10

i usually have no plans after school and just kind of go with the flow. sometimes, like today, i have way to much on my plate and am super tired and kinda sick so i just went home. while on other days ill go into downtown nevada city and hang out with my friends. On Thursdays from 4-6 i have my internship at the Nevada City Film Festival which i find super fun and interesting. Im hoping to get a job pretty soon so that’ll probably be taking up a lot of my after school and weekends!